my dramatic life 🧬

Hi there i don't know how to write first but hahaha I want to express what is my feeling right now I'm sad to say that yesterday I can't think my self straight because I have a more problems but I don't really sure if this is called problem but I can't stop thinking of this I really really mad at my self and down because I'm not talented person and I don't know if I have a skills. I'm thinking about my future what to I do if to the point that I have a work/job what if I failed and what if I can't do that work properly I'm just saying that I'm so sorry for my self I've come to the point where I'm giving up Because I have a lot of things to do wrong and I think that maybe in the future I'll be able to do the same again Of making wrong decisions. I don't have a friend's or relative's or bf That I can tell Of my problems I'm the person that handle the problems all by my self because I don't wanna bother anyone I don't think that I'm so stupid or thinking what about tomorrow like I fell that one thing lost or Inadequate in my life but I don't know what it is I'm the type of person that even if small things or issues it's like bothering in my mind and sometimes I can't handle to the point that every night I was going to bed and crying in my pillow thinking that someday I was going all my dreams and hardwork comes true even if I don't have anyone except of my mother and all of this hardwork is for my mother. I have a lots of issues in my self that I keep in my mind and I can't tell to the other people because i know that no one know or no one can understand what is my feeling. 

Thank u for listening to my issues in my self haha I hope u enjoy it even if it's so dramatic haha